Tuesday, August 30, 2005
I mish my cayang...guess what...i dreamt of her...hehe...so happy..pish ah pish...i love you dee...hehehe...nyek nyek nyek....
k ah..better sleep back...since we not going for the first lesson that is for like 3 hrs long..
Danny JackAss Fucking off
PS: Love you sayang..you are mine now...hehe
Monday, August 29, 2005
I wanna to be with her rite now....i just want to put her in my arms.....i wanna feel her touch and her kisses...thats is what i want rite now...
MIssing her so much..i think i better stop writing.
Bye..
Sunday, August 28, 2005
Its start with me and zach...we woke up ard 9..just to go bukit panjang and buy something...den after all fucking time we sacrifice for bukit panjang..the apek say the "thing" finish...babi sak...den we went back to yew tee...lucky i remember theres one more place that sells the thing..so lucky..we bought it..and we went to my mums canteen take food...ok..shudnt elaborate more...
Reach jurong east...accidentally met up with arie and his to quiet cuzies...arie brought so much food like we are going dere for days...hehe...den also met up with danny tiger..hehehe....den we reach bedok ard 3.30 lidat ah...waited for faiq like for shit long...k..den after that went dinah's house to help her carry all the food...wow....so much food...hehe...everything was like so heavy...wah..the journey to our pit was like fucking far...we were all exhausted..fuck sak...before pit already tired..hehehe.....i reach there later den dinah and the rest..coz i and danny talk alot..hehehe...it was fun...
Apon reaching the pit..i was shock what i saw from far...it was unexpected lah for him to dat lah...his my friend seh..i tot he shud understand how i felt...but maybe in love..best men wins...i think so...i was exhausted and he did tat...tangan ringan je...but bcos his my fren..i relax...den he was like so near her everytime...
dinah and i spend really alot of time together...quality time..i had fun with her....
Anyway...the food is okay....den at 1 sumting we all drank...they say i drink the most...okay..i dunno what happened osso...heheh...den at 4 am..dinah bring me to go see sun rise..hehe.,,at 4? wtf..hehehe....den during dat time we were forcing each other to sleep...den i got cobra's bite on my neck sak...fuck...very the big...hehehe..
Den the next day...we all pack and go at 8 am....fuck..so the earllllyyyyy....but nvm..we had fun..
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CONFUSE AND FEELING IN SECURE.
Im confuse..she say she love me so much..but i feel so insecure...becos of this another guy tat i suspect to like her too...and suddenly i felt that she likes the guy too...what the hell..i hate my thoughts...but when im with her..i really trust her that she love me...but why must think this way...she told me she love only me....but words can be said easily..what am i suppose to do rite now...GOD..i need u rite now....but what i can really do rite now is to trust her..and not to think negative...only fate can decide everything...
K..thats all pimps.
DAnny JAckass Fucking off
Friday, August 26, 2005
Anyway..i broke up with april....im sorry if i hurt u april...maybe we are not meant to be with each other...hope we can be good friends...hehe...smile always...
K lah pimps...nothing much to write...
Danny Jackass FUcking off
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
Silence is ringing in my head
Stuck on repeat
Not much longer I'll be dead
So just forget me
I'm losing my mind
And I don't think you could save me this time
And it goes
[Chorus]
On and on
And I just feel helpless
how long will this take to wear off?
On and on
When will I get through this?
Welcome to my own down and out
I'm falling deeper in this hole, to disaster
I'm gripping what I thought control, was falling faster
I'm losing my mind
And I don't think you could save me this time
And it goes
[Chorus]
On and On
And I just feel helpless
how long will this take to wear off?
On and on
When will I get through this?
Welcome to my own down and out
It's dragging on
I'm wearing thin
I can't stop these walls
They keep caving in
It's gone too far
Where's my mind?
Why can't time stop fear this paranoia?
It's a never ending story!
and it starts with me!
It's a never ending story!
And it starts with me!
And it goes
[Chorus]
On and on
And I just feel helpless
how long will this take to wear off?
On and on
When will I get through this?
Welcome to my own down and out
Welcome, welcome
welcome to my own down and out
Welcome, welcome
to my own down and out
(i'm falling further)
welcome to my own down and out
Is there someone that can give me a helping hand?
Is there any feelings for her?
Why the feelings seems to fade away?
What did she do that made me this way?
What did i do that made me this way?
Or what did we do that made us this way?
Everything seems fuck up
Is everything about sacrificing?
Or it is just my fate that this happened?
Why can't i be happy? And be normal human being
Bury me and let me die
Carry me away just to make me happy
Whats the best solution that can make me happy?
Everyone just can't understand me
Im just unsure what to do
Do i still love her?
Or my love for her had fade away
What causes all this?
I just need time. Alot of time to think and be sure what to do
Why can't we get along
Why my life seems to have no freedom
God, please listen to me
I don't know and unsure what to do
Maybe love from first sight fuck alot
We can't understand each other
Or is it too fast?
There must be some errors
Because everything goes so well
But after all laughters and smiles
Tears, sadness, anger just hurt my ears
Am i irresponsible in a relationship
I THINK I AM
DANNY FADING AWAY FROM LOVE
Danny JackAss Fucking Off
PS: Let me think
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
whenever i think about this...i feel like crying...i feel that im so so stupid to get cheated....but i keep strong...coz i know i can...did you ever ask yourself why you did this..have you ever try asking yourself how i felt....HAVE YOU!!! I think no...because im just another guy who can be a toy that can be played with anytime...
you will understand how i actually felt one day...and how actually i felt NOW...
No one can let me forget bout this matter..Not even my closest friend....i have never done this to anyone...but only you..coz what you did is far worst than any other problems...if you want to clarify things...why not..maybe it can make me feel better... but eventhough it makes me feel better...i will still not forgive you bout what happened....if you say im immature...i DONT CARE....i think you are too MATURED and thats why you did this to me...and thats why you lie...and thats why you dont know how i feel....Ya..you are MATURED...
ya..everyone say..let the past be the past...but the past created my future...my anger...my hatred...my pain...i think you should not have cried just now...you are showing that you are weak...if you are strong to lie to me...you must be strong to accept the consequences....someone ask me to APOLOGISE to you...but i wont..never...coz what i wrote is what i feel...
k lah eh...this is enough for today...
Danny JackAss Fucking Off while leaving tears on his keyboard
PS: GOOD LUCK WITH THE GUY
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
Everyone will like wondering who is the liar...i wont answer you...coz no point having lots of people knowing..coz it wont solve the problem...and guess what...good luck with that guy you are processing with...coz i think last time you told me that you try to fall for him so dat you could get over me...so funny...fuck off...whats with the confession last time we said to each other.....? is that a lie too....whats with the "no, no one can replace you"
FUCK OFF...then when you were processing with that guy...you told him that you treat me as what ADIB AND ILA TREAT EACH OTHER...fuck ar eh......i dun mind if you with other guy...but the truth is still the truth...what for lie....to save yourself....
I AM VERY ANGRY....HATRED IS IN ME.....IF YOU THINK THAT THIS PROBLEM COULD BE SOLVE JUST LIKE THAT....NONONO.....LET ME DIE FIRST...THEN I FORGIVE YOU....
I dont trust you anymore.....i dont want to talk to you......i dont want any of your bullshits....i dont want to see you anymore.....i will just treat you as a stranger in my class...my school....my life....coz you are digging your own grave....NO ONE HAVE EVER DID THIS TO ME BEFORE....IF you felt upset after reading dis....you should...coz you dont know how i felt when you lied to me....
Danny JackAss Fucking Off
Ps: This post is only meant for special fucking liar....
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
LIARS, I HATE YOU ALOT
LIARS WHO BROKE MY HEART AND MAKE ME ANGRY
LIARS WHO PLAY GAMES WITH MY HEART
LIARS WHO FUCK AROUND
THEY WILL ONE DAY DESERVE THE SAME TREATMENT
THATS ALL KARMA
LIARS SHOULD JUST BE KILLED
LIARS SHOULD JUST BE PROSECUTED
I HATE THEM, SO FUCKING MUCH
DON'T ASK ME WHO
IF THE PERSON KNOW ITS HIM/HER, JUST SHUT UP
ANGER CONTROLLED ME
PAIN EATING MY HEART
SADNESS DROP AS TEARS
REVENGE INFLUENCING ME
HATRED IS MY NAME
ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW I FEEL
IN MY ENTIRE LIFE, NO ONE CHEATED OR LIE TO ME THAT HURT ME SO MUCH
WHATS YOUR PURPOSE?
WHAT YOU WANT?
I HOPE YOU ARE CELEBRATING YOUR VICTORY AND SUCCESS.
APOLOGY WON'T HEAL ME
MONEY WON'T SHINE ME
A SMILE WON'T MEND THE BROKEN ME
NOTHING CAN BE THE ANTIDOTE
IM NOT IN A DREAM RIGHT?
IM CONFIDENT THAT IT HAPPENED
A LIAR
A FUCKER
A FAKE
ENTERING AND DESTROYING MY LIFE
"Words can be said easily, but you don't know what going to happen after you said it. Especially saying something meaningful and loving. And if you lied, the person you said it to, will have a hard time forgetting about it."
Danny JAckAss Fucking Off
PS: You should have not lied!!!!!! LIAR
Sunday, August 07, 2005
I just feel that everyone hates me...everyone is in an anti-hamdan clan....everyone just want me to leave...everyone just want me to cry...everyone just want me to be angry....
When can i just be normal...a normal guy...the old hamdan...the normal hamdan..is there another person inside me....is god hating me....or my fate is just like dat....fuck....fuck...fuck....i can explode anytime.....everyday is like an obstacle for me...people lied to me....people hate me....people throw shit on me...whats all this.... what did i do to u guys.....fuck...fuck...fuck off....
I seems to hate everyone right now...to tell the truth.....everyone......just need time to cool down...everyone FUCK OFF!!!!! Only nazlina knows how i truly feel..bcoz i dare talk to her...i dare to voice out to her....she can understand me....is that the only person.......YA.THATS IT....of all...only nazlina.......thanx dude....but does voicing out let the pain, anger and hurt go....NOpe....not for me...i still need time....alot of time......anger and pain just keep taking over me.....Is there any antidote for pain and anger....IF THERE IS...i need several.....eventhough im just 17....i think ive gone thru quite alot....what bout in 10 years time..is there more pain and anger....only this year..theres so much problems.......i cant take it anymore....Suicide is not the answer for anything....but ending lifes is so easy that everyday theres must be atleast 1 person who pass away....is that fate....so whats my fate? Having all this anger and pain...is that fate....? OR im the cause of all anger and pain.....no..not me....ARGHHHHHHHHHH........fuck...fuck fuck fuck....
Eventhough this entry wont make me feel any better...i will just keep it inside.... Thanx to whoever that told me the truth...eventhough the truth hurts...i have to accept it........FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.. What am i doing??? Shit...the window is just beside me...open it up and ending my life can be so easy.... but i must stay strong........
I think i stop now..or else i will throw this fucking com of mine.....ARGHHHHHH.
For all bitches and bastard.....GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR ENJOYING LIFE....... HATE EVERYONE.....FUCK OFF..STAY AWAY FROM ME....!!!!!!!
Danny Jackass Fucking Off With Anger.
Monday, August 01, 2005
We really had fun just now....Tomorrow must go do project with nazira, adib, apek and shafiqah... haiz...hope can wake up ah....hehehe...called nazira hp off...den how to confirm with her....
Ya i will to say congratulations to my bro ARIE....his floorball team won 2nd place...its a miracle...their team is only 3 weeks old....and they won 2nd....proud giler sak...Eventhough arie only played 1/3 of the game....he really showed his confidence and spirit....must learn from him...hehehe...support him all the way sak.....sampai tekak sakit....
Anyway, me and nat are okay...friends as per normal...no more fighting i hope...haha...gd luck nat tembam for ur future...
Thats all pimps...
Danny JackAss fucking Off
Ps: Hey arie thanx for all the fun we had at ur house...fantasbulous
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